I returned in February 2006. I found it hard after I came back to Holland to feel the same for the home. I lost someone, a little girl who I loved very much. Even if we didnt see each other alot and even if I could not always spend a lot of time with her when I was in Kenya, I had a special bound with her. She died almost one day in my arms, in July 2003 when we still living in Thika. That was scaring, and we though we wil miss her soon. But a miracle happened and she enjoyed life with us for another 2 years and half. I was upset with some people cause they "lied 'to me. They have stopped me from coming to Kenya whereby I was to late to hold her in my arms. She died in a hospital against my will. I was angry with that doctor who told me some hours before she died that Savannah was very much ok. If it is fair that I was upset? maybe not but these were my feelings and I had to deal with it.

I travelled to Subukia near Lake Nakuru to visit a home of some friends. They have hosted about 55 children in a very big house located in a beautil valley. The Great Rift Valley. James and Lucy Njau are running Planet Safaris in Nairobi and with the profit they support all these children. They also have volunteers from other countries to assist them.  Unfortunatly I fell sick in that night we slept in the home. I could not enjoy the visit as I was to sick to walk around. The following day we returned to Nairobi where I stayed another day in bed in guesthouse Govenant Ngong Road. It was a short week full of activities and after another 2 days I returned back to the Netherlands. I had dinner with the staf at that time. Edward, my brother in law but ex caretaker, Humprey the cook and Myriam. They are all released but you can read this later..

I went back again in Marche but it turned out in a big disappoinment. I have learned in that short week that people like to use people as long as it benefits them I learned that people like to point the finger at others and forgetting they have their own shortcomings and mistakes. I have been showed that before you complain, realize what you really have... it is ofter so much better then you think you will get. It has bothered me for some time but with the love and understanding of my husband, who truthfully is the gift from God to me... and my friends I was encourage to move on. It is better to forgive then to forget.You are shocked that people who first seem so friendly turned to be so evil and call themselves Christians... In this work, with the tourism I do and the orphanage I found a lot of challenges on my way. But strengthen by my faith in God, encouraged by friends and people who are wise enough to judge in a honest manner I have and will always get over every bad experience.  ( the whole story will be published in my book )